still crazy after all these years

yesterday i was feeling a bit sad about leaving my job & very nervous about the new gig. & nervous about the in-law visit later this weekend. & some other stuff. i like to think i've gotten a lot better about dealing with stress & maybe i have. but yesterday, i realized i haven't made much improvement in dealing with the stress i create in my own head. but honestly, i don't have a freakin' clue what else i can do to help myself. & i hadn't felt that horrible since i lived in st. louis & worked for the devil. it's impossible to turn my brain off once i get worried about stuff. my guts start eating themselves & i can't breathe. man, it sucks. thank god for sleep, even though it tends to visit me infrequently. i woke up today feeling like myself again.

i've been wrapping things up w/ my job & trying to equip my boss w/ everything he needs to stay on top of things. in general, typing up notes has been pretty mind numbing. the computer screen burns my eyes out. we accomplished a lot today though & that was nice. i love feeling a sense of accomplishment.

today i also discovered that i am able to put my legs behind my head... at work. (i mean, i am able to do it anywhere but i made the discovery at work.) we were having a conversation about yoga... (my boss, his wife & his dad take classes w/ one of my yoga teachers, so it really wasn't thaaat wierd.) i hadn't tried this since early college. it was a procrastination technique i shared w/ a friend. we were never able to do it though. who knew it required actual physical work to increase flexibility rather than just trying to jam your leg behind your head?? not me.

on monday, i realized how convenient it is to blame bad smells on a baby who has a history of poopie smelling diapers. well, i hope he was blamed...

so that's been the week thus far. dan's parents arrive tomorrow afternoon & we'll be heading to Chincoteague Island friday morning. looks like the weather should be sunny & warm, barring an unexpected hurricaine. never can tell this time of year. i do know they have a decoy museum & i hope we have no reason to visit this time around.