last night, i awoke abruptly as D was stealing my pillow - w/ 2 hands & everything - adamant that it was his, even though he was laying on his... a little later on, he jumped up & shouted, "I have to put out that fire over there!", pointing across the room. have i mentioned D's an "active" sleeper? today i was thinking back over recent & not-so-recent sleeping incidents. the first time i spent the weekend at truman, he looked at me & said, "You suck!" i didn't realize he was asleep & that made me feel bad. more recently, he punched me in boob while beating up "sport coat guy" in his dream. nothing beats peeing in the corner & arguing with me that he wasn't...
ugh. i really wish we could get out of here & visit the cool kids in ohio. haven't seen 'em since august, i think.
went to one of my regular yoga classes this week - a teacher i don't particularly care for, but her class is decent. she decided to conduct mini private lessons with each person instead of lead the class. initially, i thought it might work out ok but in the end, it was damn annoying & not at all what i go to yoga class for. i got one good thing out of it though: i stole the mantra of the lady next to me. "I am unlimited." every time i think it, i feel significantly better; calmer, more hopeful. so, i'm unlimited. thought you should know.
work's been a bit frustrating lately. my unlimitedness is helping though. i've officially held the position for 5 months. 19 more to go. :( probably not the best way to think about it... i have lots of hangups about the place. mostly the religion thing. finally got my business cards this past week. the backs of every other one say something about working in partnership w/ J.C. i sorted through & put those cards in the back of the box. i'm not handing that out to people. gives me the creeps.
got a work fundraiser to go to tomorrow night. we'll just call it an event showcasing comedians from different religions. wish religion was funny.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
the coughing's mostly over
nothing too exciting going on these days. since the grant writing frenzy ended, going to work has felt unbelievably pointless. no challenges. not really using my brain. not even moving around much. turns out i have a strong dislike of desk jobs. i enjoy moving around during the day. after sitting for hours, i feel like my spine is compressing & my back just hurts. i'll take the cuts, bruises & dirty fingernails of carpentry over the backpain & boredom of desk work anyday... except my shoulder still doesn't work right, so i'm kinda stuck for now.
i got to go to a few job sites yesterday & at one, i taught the folks how to build a set of stairs, which was super fun (i'm a big, ol' dork & some days, i'm proud of it!). last week, i drew up a few construction details for the stair & as i was drawing everything out, i was filled with excitement & really wanted to build it myself. (whomever reads this crap, sorry. i know it's b-o-r-i-n-g.) anyway, i realized how much i enjoy the design-build process. i want to do both because they're both important & exciting to me. but i still don't know what kind of design-build work i'd like to do. i mean, that was part of my last job - but i was bored with the projects. so...that's what i've got to figure out now.
hm... i might go to a straw-bale building workshop in the beginning of march. could be exciting. the woman giving the workshop is an architect & builder that i've been admiring from afar (i read about her on the internet & met some folks in northern maryland who had worked w/ her a few years ago). maybe i want to be like her? dunno.
also, just to weigh in on the time machine vs wings debate: wings win every time for me. i have enough trouble living in the present. not really interested in going back in time, unless it's like watching a movie - no interacting, just watching - but i don't do that much movie or tv watching anyway, so why bother? i also have no interest in going back to relive parts of my life... once is enough, know what i mean? it would probably be pretty humiliating & awful anyway. flying just seems like fun.
celebrated my 31st birthday earlier this week. had an enjoyable day w/ D. we walked to federal hill & had some tasty thai for lunch & spent the afternoon at the science center. i was pretty pumped to see the body worlds 2 exhibit. but it wasn't mind-blowing at all. thought it might be horrific/creepy/interesting/bizarre. unfortunately, it was a bit of a let down. definitely bizarre. people turned to plastic, cut up & arranged in weird displays. i'm awful glad we have skin.
i got to go to a few job sites yesterday & at one, i taught the folks how to build a set of stairs, which was super fun (i'm a big, ol' dork & some days, i'm proud of it!). last week, i drew up a few construction details for the stair & as i was drawing everything out, i was filled with excitement & really wanted to build it myself. (whomever reads this crap, sorry. i know it's b-o-r-i-n-g.) anyway, i realized how much i enjoy the design-build process. i want to do both because they're both important & exciting to me. but i still don't know what kind of design-build work i'd like to do. i mean, that was part of my last job - but i was bored with the projects. so...that's what i've got to figure out now.
hm... i might go to a straw-bale building workshop in the beginning of march. could be exciting. the woman giving the workshop is an architect & builder that i've been admiring from afar (i read about her on the internet & met some folks in northern maryland who had worked w/ her a few years ago). maybe i want to be like her? dunno.
also, just to weigh in on the time machine vs wings debate: wings win every time for me. i have enough trouble living in the present. not really interested in going back in time, unless it's like watching a movie - no interacting, just watching - but i don't do that much movie or tv watching anyway, so why bother? i also have no interest in going back to relive parts of my life... once is enough, know what i mean? it would probably be pretty humiliating & awful anyway. flying just seems like fun.
celebrated my 31st birthday earlier this week. had an enjoyable day w/ D. we walked to federal hill & had some tasty thai for lunch & spent the afternoon at the science center. i was pretty pumped to see the body worlds 2 exhibit. but it wasn't mind-blowing at all. thought it might be horrific/creepy/interesting/bizarre. unfortunately, it was a bit of a let down. definitely bizarre. people turned to plastic, cut up & arranged in weird displays. i'm awful glad we have skin.
Monday, February 4, 2008
well, i survived the grant writing madness. phew. it shouldn't be so bad next year now that i'm familiar with all the info. 2 hours before it was due, i found out the info in one of the essays (that i kept from last year) was not true... that was pretty awesome. nothing like a little last minute drama. but it's done now & that's pretty great! at least i felt challenged at work for 2 weeks. i was working like a dog, but i can't say i don't like challenge. i hate feeling bored!
our kitchen sure is clean! i did some major cleaning in here yesterday & it feels much better. it's so hard to make this place feel clean. i can scrub the shit out of it & the paint is still bumpy & wierd, the walls are still discolored in places & the floor is always gross. hm. but, it's cheap. most of the time, i don't mind that it's rough around the edges. it's kind of charming - i can say this now that we haven't had any furry vermin in many moons. it's got a lot more charm & detail than most rehabbed places. sure, our bathroom has 3 surfaces sporting a range of colors & patters, from faded pink & tan to green, black & gold... it's quite an array. honestly, i kinda want to paint the place. but i'm resisting. the living room is massive & would take FOREVER & many many gallons of paint... plus, if we have to paint over it before we move out, that would really blow. so i'm holding out to see if it's a passing fancy or not. i'm picturing a really pretty pale green in the living room & a warm, fun color in the kitchen.
think i'm just getting bored w/ this space & myself. i would desperately like a haircut. i've definitely got a mop on my head. but the last lady i liked moved. hm. also feeling the urge to go shopping. this hits every once in a while. frugal living gets old at a certain point & i have to change things up a bit.
nothing too exciting going on. trying to figure out just what i can do to make my job challenging so i'll want to stick around. the guy i don't necessarily get along w/ is gone on vacation for a bit & that's kinda nice. i'm tired of being overly friendly all the time. it's a drag.
had hoped to have enough time to make some apple muffins tonight. but i went on a long walk w/ E & L. just enough time to finish making soup for my lunch tomorrow. i think that's all i've got. the nyquil D is kicking in. good stuff.
our kitchen sure is clean! i did some major cleaning in here yesterday & it feels much better. it's so hard to make this place feel clean. i can scrub the shit out of it & the paint is still bumpy & wierd, the walls are still discolored in places & the floor is always gross. hm. but, it's cheap. most of the time, i don't mind that it's rough around the edges. it's kind of charming - i can say this now that we haven't had any furry vermin in many moons. it's got a lot more charm & detail than most rehabbed places. sure, our bathroom has 3 surfaces sporting a range of colors & patters, from faded pink & tan to green, black & gold... it's quite an array. honestly, i kinda want to paint the place. but i'm resisting. the living room is massive & would take FOREVER & many many gallons of paint... plus, if we have to paint over it before we move out, that would really blow. so i'm holding out to see if it's a passing fancy or not. i'm picturing a really pretty pale green in the living room & a warm, fun color in the kitchen.
think i'm just getting bored w/ this space & myself. i would desperately like a haircut. i've definitely got a mop on my head. but the last lady i liked moved. hm. also feeling the urge to go shopping. this hits every once in a while. frugal living gets old at a certain point & i have to change things up a bit.
nothing too exciting going on. trying to figure out just what i can do to make my job challenging so i'll want to stick around. the guy i don't necessarily get along w/ is gone on vacation for a bit & that's kinda nice. i'm tired of being overly friendly all the time. it's a drag.
had hoped to have enough time to make some apple muffins tonight. but i went on a long walk w/ E & L. just enough time to finish making soup for my lunch tomorrow. i think that's all i've got. the nyquil D is kicking in. good stuff.
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