falling asleep

i've been fighting it since about 9:15 & so far i'm winning...

this is what my life is looking like these days:
work & physics

seriously, i had no idea one class could take over like this. i'm so grateful for dan's brilliance when it comes to physics & math. he's the best tutor a gal could have... extremely patient & kind even after he's explained something a handful of times & i'm still saying, "i still don't understand what velocity means..." the man deserves a medal. seriously.

had my first physics test (practice test) this week. i got a 32... only because the teacher didn't grade the back of my test. (i should've gotten a 50-something.) he's a super nice guy but not a good lecturer & he's a bit of a goon. a nerdy scientist. pulls his pants up real high, big white tennis shoes, big glasses, tucks his hands into his pants when he's talking... but i think i'll do alright - probably a C & that's ok by me.

other than this, work's been taking the rest of my time lately. it's been super overwhelming. all my fault & i'm mostly ok w/ it. would've been much easier to deal with if i wasn't taking a class though. my new folks at work started last week. it's been pretty exciting & stressful. i'm in charge of their orientation & training. (i'm not doing all the training myself - just organizing & delegating stuff.) i'm glad no one video tapes me talking to them because i think it would be incredibly embarassing. i'm certain i look & sound like a complete boob. i get so excited about everything there is to talk about & then overwhelmed by all of it (plus, they're such a great group - that in & of itself is a little overwhelming), i'm just blabbering all kinds of nonsensical information. it's pretty rediculous really. if only i knew what they thought. i'm almost certain no one was a fan of my talk about hazardous materials & proper lifting... which ended in me showing them stretches on the floor of our warehouse. it was more than a little awkward. but that just comes w/ me, i think... awkwardness. i'm a pro. anyway, everyone seems to be very impressed by the group as a whole, which is great. i feel like i've done a damn good job w/ them so far - recruiting & orienting. we went over expectations, which are high - & they're totally on the ball. like cleaning up after themselves & others & everything... so different from last year. i think it could go really well.

when did i stop counting the months remaining in my 2-year commitment at this job? i don't know but it was a long time ago. somehow i started to really enjoy it, inspite of all the stress & other nonsense. i'm already thinking about what i'll do differently this time next year... which is wierd, cuz i don't think i want to do this for the rest of my life. but i am enjoying it. (in case anyone else's counting, at the end of september, it'll be 12 months to go.)

right now d-bone is out for a run. he's become an exercising, healthy-eating fool this past summer. a bit out of character for him... but it's nice. he's been a lot happier these past few months than he's been for quite some time. & it's not because we've made some awesome new friends or anything.

i'm fighting the urge to install a large marker board on our living room wall... it would be nice if d & i could work out my physics problems on the wall. is it weird for one to homeschool their wife? probably.

aside from all this crap, we had an amazing visit with katie at the farm where she's interning over labor day weekend. it's beautiful & peaceful. i couldn't help but think that this was exactly how life was meant to be when we were there. a lot of work to do, but a slower pace. everything was right outside the house - no need to drive all over god's creating to go to work or get food. plus, you can't beat being woken up by cows & pigs & chickens. i wish i was passionate about farming. then i could have all the fresh raspberries i could handle. ...and fresh air & fresh food, etc.

it was wonderful to visit with katie. i've missed her being around these last several months & i'm excited that she may be returning to balto for a short stint.