I gotta get some sleep

Somehow, I forgot to include the following event in the few blog posts I've written this year.   This accomplishment was significant for me because I have an overwhelming fear of heights.  When I'm in a high place, it's as if the very top of my head is the heaviest part of my body.  I feel I have no choice but to fall from where ever I am.  I know it's ridiculous.  My colleague, Roger, who was filling in for me while I was out on maternity leave, planned a reflection and team building day for our exiting service members at a high ropes course. (!?!?!)  Yeah, I would've never taken anyone there.  We spent most of the day on ropes so low to the ground that I didn't expect anything like our high ropes course.  When I first set eyes on it, I immediately began to panic.  I sat out, gave someone else my harness, tried to breathe and not cry.  But eventually I gave in and flipped the hell out.  I started bawling.  "I can't do this, I can't do this.  I'm too afraid."  The facilitators reassured me that I didn't have to do anything that I wasn't comfortable with, which was cool.  We had such a great group of AmeriCorps members last year.  They totally supported me and somehow I managed to do this.  I made it through the whole course. 

There are lots of things that I never thought I'd be able to do - and some of them I truly haven't done or even tried.  I've also tried a good many things and succeeded at more than I thought I could.  It's a good reminder that people are adaptible, flexible and resilient.  It's been a year of new and unexpected challenges and today, I'm feeling pretty okay about it all.  A few days ago, maybe not so much.  Right now, I'm treading water and feeling good.