monday, monday

why can't i sleep??
i think it's because i have an applicant coming in on Wednesday for a "working interview" & i'm fairly certain she won't make the cut. she called me & i wasn't expecting it - i was completely unprepared to tell her we couldn't offer her a position. so now i have to meet her & feel even worse when i deliver the news. sucky. alas, i have to be a grownup sometimes.

i'm getting a little nutso about work & putting together a construction curriculum. i'm really not sure how to teach construction. i mean, on-the-job learning seems to be very effective, but slow. i think there should be some training that occurs outside of the job-site. d & i went to the library yesterday & i got about 15 books on construction... all the good ones they had. :) sorry, all you do-it-yourselfers. i've got the good books until june 1. they've got a lot of good details/diagrams as well as tips n'tricks. i admit i don't have as much experience with structural framing as everyone else i work with... i'm more of a trim girl. i often feel inadequate because my construction experience is so different. & because my shoulder doesn't work, so i can't lift anything, & my voice isn't as strong as it could be, so people can't hear me. i'm awesome at my job, really, i am. :)

not too much else going on these days. it's cold as crap & rainy here. made chili & cornbread for dinner tonight, that's how cold it is. chili on may 12. d & i had a pretty good time hanging out yesterday, running errands & whatnot, being silly. we watched American Beauty last night, which we'd seen before, but i couldn't remember the plot. it was good, but disturbing. i felt so awful for the gay guy in the end, it just about broke my heart. we all know how shitty it is not being accepted for who you are. jeez. i can't imagine spending my entire life pretending to be someone else. would i have rather watched Karate Kid? i don't think so.

hm... i guess that's about it. my garden was doing ok, last i checked. could be completely washed out by now for all i know. planted a bunch of wild flowers & daisies in the boxes on our roof. i'm excited to have a little color on our roof - a big change from black tar. :) my brussel sprouts aren't doing so well though - the seedlings do well for a few weeks, turn yellow & die.

still working on making friends with my hair. it truly has a mind of its own. i'm pretty much over it though & i don't feel like a boy or a lesbian, so that's cool. i do think i should probably invest in some sort of "product" though.