they care way more than i do

so... just got back from 2.5 hours of "happy hour" with some folks from work. i realized during the long, drawn-out conversation- about work, of course - that i'm not nearly as committed as they are. in fact, i could walk away now & would be just fine. i don't really want to walk away at the moment. but i have to admit, getting more of the insider's view of things kinda sucks. i should've realized that they wanted to dump on me & see if i could get anything past our supervisor. uuugh. seriously, i have enough on my plate.

so i'm still interviewing applicants & a few people have been in for working interviews. had two such folks in today. it was a little stressful. i already had my ideas about certain people being a good fit or not, prior to actually meeting them. anyway, i got word at the end of the day that the opposite of what i thought was true on the job. huh. one person is way more skilled than the other, even though that person's life may not be as together as the others. jeez. this is really tough. suddenly, i've started to feel like i'm scrambling for applicants. a little panicky. maybe i should take anyone who seems kinda ok? yeah, probably not.

in other news, i got my teeth cleaned the other day, for the first time in 6 years. that's right. 6 years. it wasn't really something i took care of once i had to take over & make decisions for myself & see to my own health care, etc. hm... it wasn't that bad, actually. i don't eat crap, i drink a lot of water & brush my teeth often. i did learn that tartar = barnacles on your teeth caused by saliva. gross.

i'm off to do some reading & winding down after a long ass day.