these days...

i've learned it doesn't pay off to be full of rage & completely stressed out. of course, i knew this before. but i'm learning it all over again as my physical therapist beats the crap out of my neck/shoulders/back twice a week, bringing me to tears. i'm not sure if this is better or worse than the days when stress went straight to my stomach, leaving me constipated & sometimes throwing up uncontrollably. i think this is better. it's closer to the top of my person which means it's closer to leaving me, right? maybe i'm getting a little better at dealing with it?? i think so.

can't wait to get out of here & at the same time, i'm nervous about being gone (missing things at work, falling behind, leaving my intern w/out supervision) & about how "relaxing" our trip home will or won't be... i feel like we have to move closer to home in order to graduate into taking actual vacations by ourselves.